Thursday, August 22, 2013

What It Takes

I know who I am
I am child of the Divine One of Many Names
I mindfully stand in the strengthening Glory
I give thanks and honor to the Divine Presence
I celebrate and hold sacred the Renewal of each day
I crumble and cry in the comforting Grace

I know who I am
I stand openhearted to greet you.
I extend open arms to meet you.
I sit with an open mind to hear you.

Yet, because I know who I am 
I am not and refuse to be your fetish or your pet or your experiment or your way to irritate your family or friends.
I am not a curiosity to be marveled at or exclaimed over.
I am not your exotic to be displayed.

I know who I am and
It is commendable that you continue to take responsibility for the tension between us.
It is not so great that you still expect me to solve the tension by what? Changing who I am!

I know who I am
I am child of the Divine One of Many Names
I mindfully stand in the strengthening Glory
I give thanks and honor to the Divine Presence
I celebrate and hold sacred the Renewal of each day
I crumble and cry in the comforting Grace

I know who I am
I continue to grow and morph and expand and contract only to open more.

I take on more years and more weight.
I decipher and reframe past experiences to accommodate new understandings of who I am and how the world works that serve an open heart and larger life.

And, because I know who I am
I am not your punching bag.
Your public displays of abusive behavior is my business.
I will talk back when you speak to me dismissively because I am not your servant
I will not allow you to be comfortable with your biases because I care about you.

I know who I am
My femininity is not a frailty.
My kindness is not weakness.
My trusting nature does occasionally get me in trouble and I am not naive.

It is an honor to be living at this time.
It is terrifying to be living at this time.

I know who I am and
It is not easy to be judged for everything that I do and do not do (yes, that is an understatement).
It can be stressful to be the symbolic exemplar inadvertently challenging another's assumption about who they are in the world.

I know who I am
I am child of the Divine One of Many Names
I mindfully stand in the strengthening Glory
I give thanks and honor to the Divine Presence
I celebrate and hold sacred the Renewal of each day
I crumble and cry in the comforting Grace

Knowing this 
- knowing this -
Is what it takes daily to walk mindfully, to stand honorably with great fullness, and to be openhearted in a complex and changing world with fascinating people that sometimes wish I was other than who I am.


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